Falling In Love Is A Solo Act...

I try to be strong for us. Strong enough to show you I can make it through the distance. Fight through the pain of not laying my head down on the pillow next to yours nightly. I am willing to go the distance and fight the distance that separates us. But I cant fight our battles alone and succeed. 

xoxo

Breathe...

I breathe in deeply trying to inhale as much of the memory as I possibly can. Not that I can forget but...the scent rings live in my nostrils as I inhale the past. 

xoxo

Butterfly Kisses...

I can feel your kisses on my flesh as though you've planted them on each particular spot purposely so that I would find them later. And just like that goosebumps form and my heart speeds up as if it were the first time I laid eyes on you. Just when I thought love couldn't get any deeper then where I already was, I tripped and fell a little bit further down then expected. 

xoxo

Funnel Cakes and Fireflies...

And just like that we grow slowly forgetting simple times when ice cream cones and sugarcane was sufficient enough to crave our young appetites. Big eyes view the world as innocence shaded by palm trees and coconut milk, grass stains and endless days of summer vacation. When good times were good times, and nothing was better then days of sunshine and Popsicle sticks. We long for butterfly kisses and hand holding...

xoxo 

When There Is Only Hope...

I wonder if the way you look at me now places questions in your heart? Makes you step back and ask if this is it? If this is all I have to offer you in the long run, even if we both thought I could produce more. I wonder if you love me the way you did the first time you said it. If I can make your palms sweaty. And the very thought of me still can make you smile. I wonder if slowly but surely I'm losing you...




xoxo

I Pray...

Bowed head, fingers together, on my knees...I pray. For something worth hoping for. For days when rain is only sent to make flowers grow. For times when innocence protected me from the way I'm feeling right now. Praying that GOD will wipe away my tears because I've been crying for...I don't know how long I've been crying for. Treading water trying to swim ashore...I'm praying. Bible clenched tight, red eyes, a hopeless child in need of something worth hoping for. Something worth smiling for...again. Praying because...what else is there left to do??


xoxo

Cheers To The Moments...

I've had my girlie moments

My OMG why hasn't he called moments

those ima play hard to get and

see if he bites moments

because he better bite moment!!

The ima stay quiet and act real shy

cuz that's me moment
until you realize that's not really a "me" moment.
I've stepped back and had a just be moment
a quiet moment with just me and me.
A boy I would surly like to stab you right before
the moment when momentarily I think
"What would Jesus do?"

The moments where I wanted to say I love you,

but I couldn't decide.

So I bit my tongue and held it inside.

I've got man up moments

when I feel on top of the world moments.

Those baby, just baby me for a moment

while I let you take care of things for a change moment.

There are those I cant bare to cry moments

so I breathe in deeply and push tears aside moments.

Moments I feel I don't deserve to be happy...

I've got lots of moments I feel I don't deserve to be happy...

So as I sit here in this Jose Cuervo moment

raising my glass and tipping my head moment

Salud to those moments

that last lifetimes and end instantly!

xoxo

New York Rain...

As the skyline darkens

over city buildings and

finger stained windows,

headlights blaze through

darken allies

looking for a place to escape

this wet chaos.

xoxo