If I Just Realize...

I don't understand why it didn't hit me sooner. Guess I was living in a daydream, pretending that blue skies stayed blue and rainbows appeared before the storm, just because. Maybe I'm more naive then I would like to admit to myself. But, I really thought that if I tried hard enough, if i believed in someone strong enough, if I loved her the way a best friend is suppose to love unconditionally, then maybe just maybe she would want to do the same for me. It's silly how our own minds play tricks on us. Each time she smacked me down, I rose and planted my feet hip-waist a part, only to be smacked down again. Funny how some bruises don't heal even after they fade.



XOXO